I remember your birthdays as always sunny,
with an occasional shower, maybe,
but I only ever picture you with golden shimmers.
Your smiles started as honeyed glimmers
reflected in your sky-blue eyes, rapt
with homemade gifts, so badly wrapped.
Once, we took you to a restaurant; inside
was candlelit while summer blazed outside.
Tipsy with red wine, tangled in spaghetti, sauce
on chins, we giggled when the waiter made a fuss.
In a different restaurant and another life,
trying to spread butter, you fumbled with a knife;
no smiles or giggles, your eyes clouded over,
spirited away by dementia, mother.
Kim M. Russell, 5th July 2020
My Mum would have been 83 today.
Our memories come tinged with multitudes of emotions. (K)
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They do, Kerfe.
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I got a rush of chills at the end. Love this.
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Thank you, Colleen.
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Your poem is so heartfelt Kim. I remember you telling me you lost your mother to dementia. Such a sad and wicked way to leave this world. It is a painful process and heartbreaking for families. Your words captured the bitter-sweet memories 😢
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Thank you, Christine. It’s been a tough day. I went for a walk and then binge-watched some more of ‘This Is Us’. Made me cry 😢
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I’m sorry Kim. Being out in nature can soothe and even TV can be cathartic. Thinking of you 💕🙂
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Oh, so sad, the comparison between the two occasions, and the long losing of one’s mother through dementia. This poem has such impact; it goes right to the heart.
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Thank you, Sherry.
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Beautiful. Touching.
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So sad. I’m sorry, Kim. It was sad seeing my mom forget and become confused, but she was already in her 90s.
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Thank you, Merril. It’s one of the hardest things, for watch your parent be disappeared by dementia.
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Yes. 😢
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