Only a few days away,
and nine years on, I recall
the luminous hope that opened
like a flower in my heart,
when you opened
your eyes.
Death had not got its way.
You perched on the windowsill
of life, not yet ready
to spread your wings,
still tethered by earthly things.
Hope was still shining on the day
you called to let me know
you were home,
about the money for my birthday,
as if nothing had happened,
asked me to take care of mum
if anything should happen.
And it did: with only four days to go,
happy birthday greetings departed with you,
a brutal goodbye with no words.
Just the imprint of a sudden fall
downstairs, and the memory
of swimming at the local pool,
your strong hands buoying
me as I splashed,
washing back over me in waves
of grief.
Kim M. Russell, 2nd August 2020
What a powerful poem – you manage to convey such love for each other with much clarity and understanding
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Thank you, Jae.
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Memories sweet and sad, a profound and vivid poem
much💝love
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Thank you, Gillena. Much love to you. 💖
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I am sorry for your loss. A truly beautiful poem.
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Thank you so much, Ingrid.
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So few (but perfect!) words for such a compelling relationship, such a complex memorial. Awesome writing, KR.
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Thank you so much, Ron.
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It is very hard to accept someone you love dies earlier than expected but your feelings say so much you loved them which they surely knew.
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Thank you, Robin.
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I am so sorry for your loss, Kim 😦 This is a poignant and deeply moving write.
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Thank you, Sanaa.
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I just love and felt this deeply. The opening flower, heart and eyes pulled me awake right away. The waves of grief and the memory of being buoyed by him really touches me and is a wonderful image to close the poem on. We are so tethered here.
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Thank you so much, Colleen.
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It’s often hard (for me, at least) to express my grief in words. You have done an excellent (if painful) job of expressing yours.
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Thank you so much.
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A touching, expressive and beautiful penned piece, Kim. ❤
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Thank you so much, Khaya.
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A beautiful remembrance; this poem has grace at heart.
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Thank you, Wyndolynne.
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Such a wonderful photo – and such loving history in your poem. Sigh. I really felt this one. I especially loved the perching on the windowsill of life, not yet ready to spread his wings………..
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Thank you, Sherry.
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this was a warming, touching poem. it reminded me of my own grandparents who have passed on. i like it, it was beautifully written.
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Thank you.
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heartfelt emotions
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Thank you.
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Oh, Kim, my heart just broke a little… and my thoughts flew on the wings on crows into fields full of memories of my grandmother and my little brother and other loves now gone. So much feeling in this one. I don’t cry often, but this piece left me weeping. ((🖤))
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Thank you, Magaly, as I’m so sorry my poem broke your heart and made you cry. It’s eleven years on 6th August and it’s still so raw
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I am never sorry for feeling. ❤
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The loss here is palpable–grief is such a long process–virtual hugs to you!
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Thank you kindly.
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Long ago I wrote a poem of loss that said “We live day by day always thinking we’ll have time to say things on the morrow, but death takes away all those chances and we’re left full of words in our sorrow”.
Your beautifully expressive poem recalled those words to me, and my emotions at the time I wrote them.
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Thank you so much, Bev. August is not my favourite month.
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Oh, you made me cry! Such a perfectly crafted poem about such a beautiful father-daughter relationship!
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Thank you so much, Rosemary, and I’m sorry I made you cry.
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I am sorry for your loss. Beautiful poem.
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Thank you, Ayala.
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Not something that can be gotten over. A beautiful melancholy. (K)
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Thank you, Kerfe.
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These poems are so difficult to write – yours is rich with poignant emotion. So sorry for your loss.
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Thank you Rajani.
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So very touching!
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Thank you!
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I feel your hurt and your love in these words. My condolences to you and yours.
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Thank you, Joel.
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I can’t believe the impeccable timing in which I stumbled across this poem. My father died three years ago on August 11. Each year, the season and the anniversary week brings with it a fog and a weightiness that only those who have lost can understand. Beautiful reminder of the hope that comes with knowing where one’s loved one is.
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Thank you so much for reading and commenting.
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