“Rummaging in our souls, we often dig up something that ought to have lain there unnoticed.” From Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
Digging deep into the handbag
of my soul, I find a snot-filled tissue
of lies, a childhood fraught with tears
and worry, my mother’s bloody nose,
coming home from school on my own
to find a locked door, her on the floor.
But my fingers brush the silk lining,
a little torn, nevertheless comforting,
like grandmother’s cuddles,
days spent under the garden hose,
my grandfather pruning his favourite rose,
its scent still sweet and redolent.
Kim M. Russell, 9th September 2025

Tuesday is the day for Poetics at the dVerse Poets Pub and, this week, Melissa is our host. She asks us not to shoot the messenger on Tolstoy’s birthday.
Melissa reminds us of Tolstoy’s best known works, War and Peace and Anna Karenina, and that he was born on 9th September 1828. However, her greatest introduction to Tolstoy was a book entitled Thoughtful Wisdom, from which she has taken some of his thoughts.
She asks us to choose one of the ideas that she has provided, one that resonates, that we believe to be true, and then write a poem about a time (or times) our actions aligned with the idea we’ve chosen and a time our actions did not: one poem including both concepts.
The metaphor of the handbag in that snot-filled handkerchief really works well for those regrets we try our best to forget…. love the way you still could still find that sweet silk in the bottom
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Thanks Björn.
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Powerful poem. I am so glad you had that sweet silk lining 💔❤️
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Thank you, Lisa.
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Filled with such poignancy and sweetness, this is such a beautiful picture of life! ❤️
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Thank you!
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Kim, this delves into the complexities of memory, pain, and tenderness. You reveal the contrast between the trauma and the warmth of familial love – creating a powerful emotional pull ❤️
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Thank you very much, Ange. I admit , the first stanza was painful to write, even though it was a long time ago. And then I shed a few tears writing the second stanza.
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It is worth the introspection after all. I love the silk lining as well. There always seems to be a positive spin we can put on things.
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Thank you, Melissa. Ever the optimist.
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A heartfelt poem Kim. Sad that you had to go through all those experiences as such a young age. Glad you were able to bring it around as you look back.
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Thank you, Dwight.
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I chuckled during the first stanza. It is so sweet and honest and something I can connect to, even though I’ve never owned the handbag. I also love the comfort of the final stanza. Very nice contrast. Thank you for your poem.
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Thank you, Aaron.
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Very nice contrasts set one to the other
much♡love
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Thanks Gillena, and much love to you.
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What stark rememberings but I love the sense of progression in your perception – of giving the gift to yourself of happier memories – Jae
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Thank you for close reading, Jae.
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Love the quote and how well this handbag analogy works.
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Thank you, Rajani.
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I’m not sure why but your poem inspired me to write a second entry. Thanks! 👏
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That makes me happy this morning, Shaun
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Good poem
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Thank you.
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Kim, your poem touched the very depth of my soul … no child should have to experience what you share … and all children should experience the joy you knew with grandma and grandma.
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Thank you so much.
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Now that’s what I call a rummage, so many evocative moments, especially the scent of roses. I was caught by your mother on the floor, a difficult experience – I can only imagine.
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Thank you, Paul. It only happened once that I remember.
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Thankful for small mercies comes to mind, thank you for sharing that Kim.
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