
Yesterday’s pink
streaks of cloud
in the sky
were reminders
of the drifting
in your eyes,
the absence
of your spirit
that last visit,
the Christmas
before you died,
painful reminders
that I can’t abide
the inevitable
ebbing tide
of your sweet,
pink-lipsticked
smile.
Kim M. Russell, 30th November 2020
My response to dVerse Poets Pub Quadrille: The Dude Abides
Lisa is our host and she says that she ‘tried to think of a word for today’s quadrille prompt that would fit what each human on the planet is dealing with right now in some fashion in regards to the pandemic’ and what she has given us is ‘abide’, a verb with three distinct definitions. The first: “accept or act in accordance with” rules, decisions or recommendations. The second is: “be unable to tolerate” someone or something. The third is: “continue without fading or feeling lost” in regard to a feeling or memory. She says she could be wrong, ‘but it seems like each of us may be rotating through all three of the definitions over these past so many months’.
To illustrate these meanings and give us inspiration, Lisa has shared a poem by Jake Adam York, which has ‘Abide’ as its title, and ‘Monarchy’ by Emily Rosko, which has the word in the body of the poem, as well as an excerpt from the hymn ‘Abide With Me’.
Today’s challenge is to write a quadrille, a poem of 44 words (excluding the title), which must include the word ‘abide’.
This is incredibly poignant, Kim! I am especially moved by “the inevitable ebbing tide of your sweet pink lipsticked smile.” Sending love and hugs..
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Thank you so much, Sanaa.
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Losing a parent is always hard, but that fading is especially hard. For my mother it took years and years… and right now I’m reliving all the years of my childhood.
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I can’t imagine what you must be going through, Bjorn. Did you and your sister get everything sorted out? I’m so glad that you have each other and can lean on each other at such a difficult time.
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This cuts deep Kim and the title speak volumes. Impressive too the way you joined the circle with ‘pink’
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Thank you, Laura.
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This is heart-wrenching, Kim: especially the contrast between the mother in the photo and the mother at the end of her life as you describe in your poem.
‘the inevitable
ebbing tide
of your sweet,
pink-lipsticked
smile.’
Is so sad and poignant to picture. I am sorry for your loss.
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Thank you so much, Ingrid.
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Kim, I feel that ache and know the helplessness you must have felt. My mom is moving towards that place you describe and it hurts to know there isn’t much that can be done. The lockdown and being shut away from loved ones and activities she’s used to sure isn’t helping. Such a heartfelt poem.
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Thank you so much for your kind words, Lisa.
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You’re very welcome.
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Oh, Kim! This is so poignant, and that fading away so sad. My mom definitely was not the person she had been in her final years. I was thinking about my mom over Thanksgiving. Hugs!
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Thank you for the kind comment and the hugs. We never stop thinking about our mums.
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You’re very welcome, Kim.
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I forgot to say–that photo! So sweet and so reminiscent of another time.
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I don’t have many photos, but those I have are treasures, Merril.
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My mother passed before she was 40. My mother-in-law made it to 90. In the great scheme of things, our higher self is aware of our “death day”.
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I think you might be right about that, Glenn.
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This is so full of sadness, Kim, and the light in the sky an eternal memory. Such a lovely association to make.
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Thank you, Jane.
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🙂
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This touched my heart, Kim. I well remember my mother’s eyes when I knew they no longer recognized me. It is difficult to get past those memories to the time they were bright, sparkling and laughing. Blessings, my friend.
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Thank you so much, Bev. I hate to think that my daughter will have to go through something similar. Blessings winging their way back to you.
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I love the way you circle from pink to pink. This is so poignant. Emotion and craftmanship. Craftwomanship?
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Thank you, dear Sarah. Loss of a loved one is so hard. I hope you’re not feeling too down today.
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It is hard, and I know my loss is tiny compared with some peoples, but it has been quite traumatic. I keep noticing she’s not there! I notice her absence more than I noticed her prescense, if that makes sense.
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I was like that when Tosca died, just as we were about to leave for Italy for Ellen’s wedding. A cat-sized hole stays with you.
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Such a powerful poem, Kim. This time of year is always the worst when you’re missing someone.
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Thank you, Phillip.
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Some memories will bring us pain. Yet there is life that must we live
Happy Monday Kim
Much💜love
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Thank you, Gillena – and much love to you.
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I miss mine, too, KR; my sister and I were just talking about her. Your work encapsulates it all. Well done.
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Thank you, Ron. Hugs are winging their way to you.
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I miss mine, too, KR; my sister and I were just talking about her. Your work encapsulates it all. Well done.
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This is very beautiful … Katie
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Thank you, Katie.
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There is such heartfelt emotion in your words. A snapshot in time. ❤
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Thanks so much, Colleen.
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Lovely writing, Kim. It brought some tears. What a beautiful pic of you and your mom. I know how your heart must ache.
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Thank you, Susan.
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With my own mother, it’s always red. And the sadness never ends. (K)
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That is true, Kerfe. You hope the pain will go away, but it never does.
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were reminders
of the drifting
in your eyes,
Very touching more so when a cute little darling is the one being missed
Hank
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Beg your pardon Kim, Much much more so if our loving mother is the one being missed
Hank
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Thank you, Hank.
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A lovely poem for anyone who’s lost their mum.
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It’s pretty much inevitable, we know it will happen, but when it does it stays with us forever.
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A beautiful poem Kim. Those memories hang around a lot longer that we wish.. Great use of the prompt.
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Thank you, Dwight.
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Such love and longing in pretty shades of pink…
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Thank you, Lynn.
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Lovely poem with beautiful, touching words.
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Thank you so much, Maria.
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So poignant and beautifully written.
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Thank you, Lucy.
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Lovely piece Kim – how powerful ‘abide’ is right in the middle of this – both a refusal of the painful memory and the memory abiding still – and that wonderful photo. (I’ve got one just like it which I can’t bear to look at for the heartache).
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Thank you Peter. I have a handful of such photos and worry I might lose them, so I keep them safely in a box. I managed to scan a few, so they are on my computer and pop up every now and again at random. Each time I get a pang.
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Very moving Kim — our mothers are indeed precious.
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Thank you, Francis, I miss mine.
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This is truly from the heart. The use of “abide” punctuates the sense of loss.
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Thank you, Ken.
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This is a beautiful and heartfelt expression of loss, Kim. I lost my mom in 1968 and still feel she is always with me.
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Thank you, Eugenia. I’m the same, my mum is always with me.
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😉
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Oh, man. This is powerfully sad, Kim. I’m so sorry for your loss.
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Thanks so much, De.
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This is dripping with emotion, Kim.
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Thank you, Candy.
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Doubly lovely because so finely grounded on concrete images and doubly poignant for the intimated diminishing of life and memories. Beautifully conceived, Kim.
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Thank you so much, Dora!
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My mother has been ill and was in the hospital for a while. She is home now and I am grateful for each day. I can feel you emotions in this piece.
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Thank you Truedessa, I hope your mother is feeling much better now.
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A touching and beautifully written poem, Kim.
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Thank you so much, Sara.
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Soooo sooo beautiful
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Thank you so much!
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Always welcome…It’s my pleasure
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